Trouble does occur once in a while...

Now is 11.40pm.......

Chinese New Year is here yesterday.....

Happy chinese new year to all chinese people.......

Today was the 2nd day of chinese new year and we called it 'chor yi'

I got sick due to eating too many fried stuffs yesterday which was 'chor yat'..how it happened was i eat once the chicken is done frying thats what got me sick as it is very heaty....pity le second day sick..

sighhh i had mood to write blog now..soo long i didnt have the mood to express anything sad and i thought i will be starting to express only happy stuffs but i was wrong..

This blog post was one of my nightmares...I thought sick was fun as i can get some care and stuff but i didnt know why but i was very wrong ..

I reached home and called her because she told her alarm went off and light seemed to be on she suspect burglar might got into her house..long story..i sms her and she didnt reply me so i keep calling and later she answered and talked a while...i was glad to know she was ok and i am so happy she told would call me again later she told...and i remembered how she used to tell me last time she would use chances to run into her room and chat with me.....wanted me to call her.

but now..

it was different..When i needed most care and that is the time i got the lessest care.......

I was sick and i keep sneezing and coughing until i had a chest pain yeah but nvm i still thought it would be nice to get some care..as i needed lots of care so i would not mind even if my sick worsen..

'Y' asked me to eat medicine but i purposely didn't want to eat because i want to get more sick so i can get more care...

After the last call i waited for her to miss call me for me to call her..But she just sms me and kinda slow and busy so later i planned not to reply...sorry...

She told she was watching tv and nvm i thought she would watched a while only and come up to talk to me..

Only later i knew i was only making myself happy that she will call me soon soon soon and soon...the last call was around 9.45pm..now is 11.48pm,2 hours i waited and i started to give up the hope of she would miss call me......I still sneezing like hell now and i started to get tired of waiting...Sorry 'Y'...i didnt reply you.....

I wasn't asleep but...I started to wonder...are u loving me lesser?am i bugging u??u wan to chat with me lesser?although everytime u tell me i think too much but i started to feel what i think it was true....

U seemed busy so i thought i wouldnt want to disturb u,but deep in my heart i want u to go up your room and chat with me....and ask me how am i am i still sneezing?coughing? and stuff to show care for me...but the more i wait the more uncomfortable i get as every second i am waiting for my phone to ring..Now i didnt know should i call her..she still didnt miss call me so i decided if its 12 then i would go to sleep and hope i will recover soon..

Yeah she called but only after her tv show ended...i knew i was just a spare tyre..when u have something to do..i will come after it..i always do not get to be 1st i noe..there is one period i felt u was loving me but now i dun feel it....u always tell me u do but ur actions does not show me any....we ended our call at 12.02am it was a while chat only..when i called her i didnt talk much as i already had no more mood....i felt more pain because if she would come up to chat with me we would had chatted more than hour or so.....i do not want to think anymore...things had gotten out of hand...Before holiday i talked with my friend how we fight and how we got back together and he told our relationship would be stable but i do not think so..the more i think..the more i do not feel i will break the chain of i wont get a stable relationship..

I didnt know what shoud i do anymore...Is it no matter what i do i wouldnt be 1st in ur heart?

oni 1st when u have nothing do????i really wanna know...but yet i fear the answer..ironic huh..

U keep asking me whether is it that u watched tv?or u didnt miss call me?

Boh was not the answer...

The answer was u didnt realize i was sick and i needed care thats why i didnt have the mood anymore to chat and to sms...Sorry for asking to leave me alone..U asked me if u ask me not to care u wat i would feel?

I dun feel anything as i will keep caring no matter wat......except u do not wan me to love u anymore....

I didnt know what to talk about anymore...night....

Valentine's Gift

I wonder how long have i been not updating my blog o.o hehe but nvm as im quite lazy and busy >.<

There come this year's valentine's day and chinese new year same day but sad tragedy i wasn't able to spend it with Y sad T_T

She had been sick for one week before the one week holiday thats was the saddest part..

I was only able to see her on friday which is yesterday and cant see for next whole week as she cant seemed to go out..

So nothing special happening nowadays and our fight and quarrel seems to be getting lesser and lesser..

one week or maybe 2 weeks we did not quarrel hohoho 

For valetine's day i wasn't able to think anything to buy so i decided to make her paper flower/rose!!

Yeah yeah i made it and i cant believe i made it LOL

Here is the sneak peek of it hoho 

I didn't know its nice or not but i hope she likes it >.<

Although it does not cost me much money but i hope u love it ^_^

The wrapping cause me a bit fuss as i wrap for many hours but fail to catch my eye as its ugly and finally i get to do it with help from my brother T_T

The youtube didn't even teach properly how to wrap flowers LOL maybe i didnt find it hehe

For her she gave me a bunch of chocolate flowers but i didnt eat it because i feel like keeping it hehe tak sanggup eat it too precious LOL 

This is all about valentine's gift hehe 

And schools had been a real trouble for me as my block and her block had 7 block between us and i had to walk there everyday few times..nevermind for me but discipline teacher came and talk to me telling me i had been seen too often walking around and teacher said it might cause Y some problems 

I didnt know what problem but for the next month i maybe wont be going too much T_T sorry o Y i don't want to bring trouble to you although i didn't know what problem is it but as they said prevention is better than cure so let things cool down 1st ok?

~THATS ALL GUYS HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND HAVE A NICE VALENTINE'S DAY~