Fuck it 100%

Please note there are bad words in this article if u cant stand it dont read it thx...

Yeah here i am freaking dam fucking pissed off................................

Yeah everyone so happy bout new year eve but im not...

And i had never been this pissed....o0o I adi did all the thing i never expect i would do and i dont want myself to do it..

Yeah this time i dont want be mself anymore o0o....

I already hurt Y very much

I already say all hurt full words all what also i told...

The reason why??cause she took one photo with boy which she said she wouldn't...she already said dont want but the boy keep asking??i do not understand why is it so but nevermind...If someone do not want to do something they will not do it..like how people say u cant press a cow's head to drink water if he do not want to in chinese saying...

For me if you dont want do something nothing can make you do it...

If u do it means u wanted to do it from beginning but its just that u needed people to pamper u to do it..

I don't blame anyone but i blame my fucking self for living in fantasy like a fucking idiot...

I thought she wont and i was so happy and i trust her and relieved for the very 1st time and fuck myself for doing so??

She keeps telling me she dont want and i told her what the differences with if a girl ask me sex for the 1st time i reject but i accept later on??no differences right???

That was totally hurting i know..

Yeah im sensitive and all yeah its me no one love me yeah i selfish o0o who cares anyway..

I was eating happily and so relax suddenly i misplaced my trust and i decided..i fucking decided from now on i let her do whatever she wants yeah i noe she loves it??

o0o last day of the year so fight biggest for this year good ending freaking the fucking good...

All the things she said i just answered her 'do as u like i wont force u anymore'..

Thats all i said and yeah she off at last i made her off yeah...I not gonna sleep this night i gonna on dota and kill as much as i want with my clan people and lansi them 99 and make them pissed..i love doing it o0o

If they are pro they lc,who pro,who lc..thats all i boh song i just lc whenever i killed i love it i love making them pissed and yet they got killed yesh i love it?

I went to eat with my grandma and they all and again i moody at last shit i failed to cover my feeling and i went out sit alone at the roadside like beggar bcoz i do not want my family to see me like that....

I didnt know why i feel wan vomit or damn uncomfortable when she said she took photo with a boy..

I thought i will be the 1st one to take photo with her as i had been trying hard to make myself normal to the camera bcoz i do not love taking photos last time...

Since our relationship started we never took even one and she went to take wit another boy hell yeah i am not gonna take anymore and i wont train myself like a fool anymore...i dont want to be a loser 2nd timer or what shit...

Feeling damn uncomfortable now and i keep pissing her and she is damn pissed..i didnt know why i did it but i did it against my will..

My bad side took over me yeah the side that i have been hating came out and spit all words...

Until this stage of what i had done i think there is no turning back...

No more turning back but only to look front...o0o look front do not ever hesitate let go and live without anything

I keep living in my fantasy world thinking i did get what i wanted but i get none?or maybe yeah i get but i am too dumb to be able to realize it hell yeah i knew it all along...

I told her and hurt her ask her do not wait me go home and ask her to wait other boy instead waiting me this good-for-nothing boy..yeah i knew it...

no more la no more la look front and be a lifeless idiot..Idiot self..OOoooOoOo sounds nice

This is 1st time i am fucking writing bad words and stuff so much and 99 i even keep using infront her but i didnt use it on her but i use it on making the words more GENG...

Nothing at all so quiet...This year 1st year i didnt eat tong yuan hahaha 1st time again nice huh o0o i try to find it but no where has it nvm i dont mind...there will be 1st time anyway why not now than later??

I went home and continued blogging ...

Cant sleep and i haven't blog for so long...sighhhh

I cant only keep sighing.....i didnt know why..

She wished me happy new year when i nearly reached home but i didnt see it because i was driving...

When i reached home i sent 5 messages but non could reach her and her handphone was not off..

I didnt know why..But i cant angry for long...I maybe really love her and wanted to tell her

Sorry...But i didnt had the chance because my sms weren't getting to her..

I want to prolong my angry feeling but i cant..i only can prolong my hurt feeling..

Cant sleep no mood dota..all my anger went away...

Sighh again and again this one is gonna be a tough tough night to overcome...

I started to watch Gantz a new manga top 2 in manga123 website was awesome..
Its very violent but very loving at same time..
Contains some nudity... here are some love sad pages..