1st Day...

Today,she's going to Bangkok for a vacation for 4D 3N and i hope that she will be happy and have a lot of fun there..

So far?no nothing good happened hmmmm only moody moody between us...I still cannot get over her being too obsessed with something...

And yesterday night i saw her blog and she post it everywhere something something...

And yeah i forced myself to do something and i tell her later on..

I was very uncomfortable that time and i am unable to think well as i let my emotions gets the better of me..

So i did it..Stupid me and

She..Shoot water hose =.= only she knew what it meant...

Later on when i am able to think well and reason better..

I only knew i hurted her that much >.<

I AM VERY SORRY DEAR..

I promise you that it will never happened again >.<

And i really really hope that you will not obsessed on something and tell everywhere

I don't know whats the feeling i'm feeling also..

Maybe i wish i am the guy who u will post around but i knew can't

Because you are worried that your family sees it..

Maybe i am not matured enough hmmm..

Asking you worth it to change or not actually i really meant it

Most of the girls do not think its rational to do this..

No need go to far..

I told annie my problem and she said she did dump me if i were her bf..

And that's why i asked you do u think that i'm worth the changes???

^~^

Most of the things boys and girls said like 'oh nvm de la..its ok' actually they don't

Things can't be judge from words..

Things that u felt he/she do not like it...then go ahead and don't do the stuff..

Me..i am different..I knew damn well what she do not like and i love doing it to let her scold and let her tell me do not do it next time haha..and i will not do it again

I love people controlling me but not any people =.=''

I do not know why but thats how i felt care and love LOL..

Sometimes,i purposely do stuff to make her angry just for her to scold me and control me haha..

Showing her that i am bad boy maybe will make her to control me even more..

She is not the type which live for love like me..

That's why i said we are from different world but it doesn't matters anyway..

She had games,friends,movies,entertainments and stuff...

I had it too but i just do not damn eff-ing understand why am i so dwelled in love..

I used to be a game freak..everyone knew i am..I can don't eat or sleep just for games and badminton too..

But recently i am beginning to lose all the interest i had i do not know why LOL

SOMEONE TELL ME PLEASE..

I only had interest in her...obsessed in love?yeah can say so and she is vice versa..

She gets obsessed in all other stuff except love..ironic huh but that's the way it is..

Life is full of holes and partners are here to fill in the holes of your life...

Nothing is perfect and yet many people including me hope for it..

WHY??

I also did not know the reason why.......

Obsession can be bad but for some people its good...Depending on whether you love your gf/bf more or your bf/gf love u more..

My brother even told me that he do not even know what i am doing =.=''

I am gonna change i tell you all roar!

She's on the way to Bangkok lur~God please bless her and her family's trip to back and forth safely and soundly

Her last reply wasn't saying goodbye haha maybe i didn't get the sms of hers but if its fated of me not getting it then i bow to fate..

She replied later on which i add onto this post haha her flight is 11.50am

I Will Miss You Very Very Much DEAR

I didn't know why i love comparing myself to others..

Maybe i want my gf to think i'm the best but thats just a dream or a fantasy ahahah

Not easy..When someone taken their 1st step wrongly..

They will only head to the wrong direction...Life had no turning back and regret like those game which u can restart...Life is not like this one click and you are where u were before you died LOL..

Now much of the interest i had is lost

Friends also beginning to lose one by one..

All ask me out for a drink or something i keep saying no...

So this time she go to Bangkok and cant sms at night..I already tell my friends to drink tea haha

But my heart will still be at your side dear~

Sorry ler because even if i go out with you all and sms..i felt disrespectful and furthermore she can only online at night which i wanna spend more time with her hope you all understand >.< sorry with deepest apologist...

My heart is at her hand so if i go out with you all and keep missing her i think you all will angry lol LOL!

But i also knew you all were good friends ma haha

And I want to say sorry to those who i had offended or hurt i am sorry..

~DAY 1~