Unrequitted Love

Lately...i had been feeling actually nothing i had or can say i had nothing from the start..

Its just that i am fooling and lying myself that i had something..

My mom scolded me today telling she was disappointed of me and telling i had nothing good in me

My dad told me i am the most disobedient one

I had nothing anymore..I decided that if i run away things would be solved but after all..Its just a run away..

Yeah no one love me i knew that its just pity but not love i knew....

I called her yah she made me happy really happy forgetting what my parents told me..

Later on...she got really obsessed with something and her reaction was different from normal...
Its reminds me of my ex..she poke on the magazine and i ask her is this ur ex bf?
She said no way la if it is then its great..Yeah LOL we fought also that time =.=''
Then~~come back to the story

And then i...hmmm she was really obsessed from the wat she said it and i was trying her the normal way i did and i didn't get the reply that i was expecting and i lost all my hope and i really decided something...i would never tell what is this but...its still a NO......

Later on she post on fb and say she in love and i wow and i had no more reaction no more sadness emotion

Maybe i really am learning to let go after all the tears i had fallen and i learnt new things

Tough boy do not let tears to roll down on their cheek but they make the tears roll back into the eye..

I will learn it and i will forget everything from now on and lead a normal no feeling guy..

Too much of things made me too tired..I am indeed too weak..no more.......

I thought of telling her that i want let her go as her heart is already not here..

But i do not know why i didn't do it....

I Miss my child time no worries only do all the best on what i had...

Now i don't know what i had...Love fail,Family fail,Study near-fail,Life fail

But nevermind..i believed one day i will have it...Its just a lie or runaway or what its ok i don't mind.....

As long as i can breath i do what i like and will not disturb others life.....

Here i want to tell Y that if your heart is already not here..You can say and we proceed with our own life

I am very sorry for causing you all these pains....

..No More..
Thanks Viviene for accompanying and advising me tonight..
When i talked with you my tears rolled down you are a great talker thanks..
Gratitude from dwarf to princess..