Day 2...

This is the second day after she left for her vacation..My heart PUMP even more faster..

My handphone was very silent yesterday except for only asking my friend to go out pasar malam..

Hmm thanks for treating me the bubble milk tea...Others were not free yesterday..sad..some were sick and some were busy

When i'm free they are not,no fate LOL

Then i really miss her sighhhhhhhh only 2days =.='''

Am i really too obseSsed LOL

Yesterday was the same daily routine that is fetching my sister and i went pass her house and saw her dad's car there so quiet le her house hmmm

This sunday she told she gonna be busy so i kinda like hope nothing happens that day

I didn't know why anxiety keeps building up day by day as it nearly suffocates me but i'm strong

I won't i guess hope so >.<

Later on yesterday my friend walked with me at pasar malam and i asked him how his love life going on..

He said ok and he had more confidence on himself now he said...

Why keep comparing and tormenting ourselves...If the girl is fated to be married with you..

How handsome or how good a boy/guy is,come to flirt her,she will not be affected or even bother...

Although i totally agreed on what he said..but i didn't know what is bothering me deep inside me..

I miss her a lot until i dreamt her consequently 2 times in a row haha i remember it well

The 1st dream was that i and her was quarelling and she sms other boys to convince her to be happy...

At last i found out and i dislike what she did and then finished because my mom woke me up to fetch her to work

2nd part was the nicest...

She showed me effort that she wanna see me..She on her msn and told she was back!!This is no.1 why i was so happy..

No.2 was she that was going out with her family and she says she wanna meet me at the shopping mall and i don't mind going far just to see her

No.3 she ask me donate blood hahah i still remember that my 1st blood donation was also solely due to her encouraging me to do it..I am very afraid of needle LOL..until the last sec before the nurse poke me with it also fear is engulfing me LOL..at last i did it and after watching her so happy i think all was worth it haha her smile make my day man!!

No.4 was she on her msn to chat with me fuyo!we were chatting so happily

I knew it was a dream so i told myself do not wake up

At last the sad part was that i woke up..hastily check my hp for msn and only found out that nothing had happen

I sit quietly on the bed staring into the air for a while and then sigHHHH...

I knew most people would say a boy or a guy or a man should not be so obssesed into something but i don't care as long as i love her..until one day she tells me or hints me that im irritating...then i will not obsess anymore...
When a boy/girl says 'Its okay..I don't mind..' << This is the time where they mind it the most

MISS you so much Y >.<